Was I good enough?



Every day I wake up asking the same question to myself Was I good enough!?
I stay quiet most of the time. I might have not shared my problems with others, reached out for any help but that doesn’t mean I’m all good. I’m still learning and trying to figure out what life is trying to put me in. People out there constantly trying to teach me what is good, whom should I trust, how to get success, make decisions, be responsible, which path I should take but… wait, let me stop you there. I’m getting overwhelmed. My exhausted self can’t handle it all at once. All my emotions are scattered and now it’s scaring me. The feeling of being different and insecure is something that’ll make me regret. Fear of not being loved back is pathetic. Anxiety Is worse.
I notice every single movement and get sad over the smallest things. The consequences of what I do never fails to hurt myself so I think a lot about my actions. Don’t start judging me. As far as I know, it comes with miserable pain. All I’m asking is some time to progress. It might take a while but I’ll make it out. Don’t start judging me. I might seem off and crazy but I’m still learning what is right and wrong. Don’t start judging me. I’m afraid you misunderstood. I’m not good at explaining myself. Words in my mind always don’t come exactly out of my mouth. Don’t start judging me. I still see the world with hope in my teary eyes. I’m growing just like the small seed planted under the soil. I may not glow like the other blossoming plants with colorful petals, but I still come out and shine with the blessings of the sun, kindness from the soil, and love from the wind.
In the end, I go to bed by answering myself  “yes I am and deep down only I know the reason.”

With regards,
– a teenager who is still growing and glowing

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47 thoughts on “Was I good enough?

  1. I really like how you are able to express your emotions so nicely. This is another article that I find very relatable. Reading such articles gives me relief that I am not the only one in the world who has experienced these things.
    Really good work! ❤️

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      1. No, I was talking about the live stream I join every week. A new student named Pavithra joined today and my friends said that it’s her first time joining the class but I didn’t see her during the live anymore. But I had a feeling that it was you 😅

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  2. This is just so relatable, Pavithra!! Every night I ask myself ‘Did i do something worth that day? Was I really capable to bring a change or Did I try to bring one?’ And most of the time the answer is a no! This actually makes it hard to sleep and then I end up convincing myself that I tried my best!
    Beautifully penned!!

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    1. Glad you can relate to it!! We sometimes think ourselves too low and end up being depressed. We think of every possible way to be perfect but fails to understand that nobody is perfect. Trying our best is the only way of perfection. You are so good, avishi : )

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  3. This post is awesome. It’s voicing all the teenager’s thoughts. Sometimes, this is exactly how I used to feel. But, later someone (someone you know) taught me to love myself. They taught me not care about people’s judgements. Because it’s our life. We can live however we want. Parents think we are spoiling our future, but seriously, why would we want to spoil ourown future? We know what is good for us better than them. It’s our life, no one has the right to control it. Crap! I’m sorry, for all my rant😅🤦

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    1. Thanks a lot swiftee!! So glad you liked it!! Teenagers these day are under lot of pressure. Sometimes we need to understand and love ourselves in order to improve and shine.
      I repeated the word “don’t judge me” because that’s what they do and we can do nothing about it.
      Self love and acceptance comes from within and that’s what makes a person beautiful!
      Made this post to make sure that you are not the only one going through it 💜
      Don’t be sorry, it was always a pleasure to hear more from you 😊

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  4. Thank you for sharing part of your story, Pavithra 💕 it was great to learn more about you and I’m so proud of you for being open about your feelings! ☺️

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